I just met the most exhausted man i have seen in my life. Am still in shock and his image is permanently embedded in my head. The look of ''OH! FUCK! please tell you got something for me''.
(exhausted is the only word that was going through my head)
I am shaking at the thought of all the problems he might possibly have gone through and that he already has.
Hesbon. Thats his name.
Hasn't rained in Nairobi for a couple of days, but he looked like he was in the middle of a mudslide. But then again am assuming that he comes from the city (or even its environs).......my apologies.
Had a bad mood all day. who am i kidding this whole month has just been bad mood month.
And as Hesbon entered didn't even bother to raise my head in recognition and what greeted him was a blunt ''SEMA?'' ( I felt like such a 'public servant' )
Am sure Hesbon could read the Pity written all over my face and that I can bet disgusted him. How many times, I wonder . does he get the same look.??
Unfortunately I had nothing for him.
Just that encounter showed me that I have nothing to be sad about.
So this individual took my heart and run it over, backed up and run it over again just to make sure that am down. Such a pity that i let this actually happen, so should I compare myself with Hesbon??
Pathetic to do so, and despite my foul mood i actually do have a smile on my face. Not that am happy because there people out there who may be worse off than me....... but somewhat YES am happy that my ''problems'' are just but a droplet in the ocean.
If you think about it... maybe that is a sign that greater debuckles are set along my path.
Then again i could be mistaken about his demeanor, maybe he is just old and still enjoys working.
I highly doubt it though.
funny how the most ''insignificant'' of all creatures make the biggest impact on our lives'' NGOIRI MUNGAI
XOXO
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
ITS BEEN A WHILE
Wow! Haven't done this in a while and am actually full of guilt.
Last i was here was in April (#hiding face), I wonder why??
Who am i kidding, So I sort of lost myself there for a while .... this happens to the best of us by the way.
Alot has happened and its unfortunate that I did not share with you all my high's and lows........RELAX.........
Well in a nutshell its been a good year, the laughs the tears and all that other nonsense that comes along with it.
( I know that aint much help but oh well trying to depersonalize my blog, maybe i should think of writing about politics , sports , entertainment *DEAD*)
I am actually very exited about being back and cant wait "to hang out" ( so they say)
xoxoxo
see you next blog
Last i was here was in April (#hiding face), I wonder why??
Who am i kidding, So I sort of lost myself there for a while .... this happens to the best of us by the way.
Alot has happened and its unfortunate that I did not share with you all my high's and lows........RELAX.........
Well in a nutshell its been a good year, the laughs the tears and all that other nonsense that comes along with it.
( I know that aint much help but oh well trying to depersonalize my blog, maybe i should think of writing about politics , sports , entertainment *DEAD*)
I am actually very exited about being back and cant wait "to hang out" ( so they say)
xoxoxo
see you next blog
Thursday, April 15, 2010
ITS NOT WORTH THE HUSTLE
Am generally not a patient person but this week I think that I have quashed that much clung onto assumption.
Life is actually very funny come to think about it.
I have grown (yes in a week) to appreciate the consolation of a newspaper to an idler
(That is what has become of me this week.....and idler)
I read it (newspaper) top to bottom, every advert, article, obituary(in fact i know ''them'' by name) you name it i've read it.
Listened to all the music that i carry around with me (am surprised that i actually listen to all this sh#@) and replied every text and phone call in the hopes of a chart.
Why all this?? because i have decided to join those who claim to be building the nation.
But then again it was my choice and so let me suffer the consequences.....but not for long i tell you.....not for long
I started out this year with alot of positive energy and God help me i'll cling onto that till it kills me (you should think of doing the same too)
Plus am thinking at this rate my blog shall be once again quite active
Its finally lunch time and at least half the day was well spent online
now for my much loved newspaper for the rest of the day
xoxo
till next time(it might be sooner, maybe a couple of hours??........i don't know)
Life is actually very funny come to think about it.
I have grown (yes in a week) to appreciate the consolation of a newspaper to an idler
(That is what has become of me this week.....and idler)
I read it (newspaper) top to bottom, every advert, article, obituary(in fact i know ''them'' by name) you name it i've read it.
Listened to all the music that i carry around with me (am surprised that i actually listen to all this sh#@) and replied every text and phone call in the hopes of a chart.
Why all this?? because i have decided to join those who claim to be building the nation.
But then again it was my choice and so let me suffer the consequences.....but not for long i tell you.....not for long
I started out this year with alot of positive energy and God help me i'll cling onto that till it kills me (you should think of doing the same too)
Plus am thinking at this rate my blog shall be once again quite active
Its finally lunch time and at least half the day was well spent online
now for my much loved newspaper for the rest of the day
xoxo
till next time(it might be sooner, maybe a couple of hours??........i don't know)
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
''CONTENTIOUS ISSUES''
Constitution, constitution, constitution
Have been holding it in too much, but we all know that I had to say something at some point.
Well let’s see the three biggest contentious issues are Abortion, khadhi courts and land ownership
Let’s just be real, do those even qualify as ‘’contentious issues’’?? Seeing how it’s just a bunch of disgruntled religious (church) leaders and an ex president and his dodgy cronies who are crying foul.
What is the meaning of democracy? there are two principles that any definition of democracy includes: equality and freedom. These principles are reflected in all citizens being equal before the law and having equal access to power.and the freedom of its citizens is secured by legitimized rights and liberties which are generally protected by a constitution.
Well the there we have it, if majority rules ………… get with the program
But really let’s look at these ‘’issues’’ for what they really are.
Abortions have, are and will always be performed. It’s a procedure as old as prostitution. Am I saying that all should adopt the ‘pro-choice’ school of thought? No. all am saying is that these church’ leaders’’ should stop manipulating that clause to influence the public.
‘’They’’ say it’s better to lose the water than the port’’ seeing as to how you could always go back to the river.
But I believe that this is not even an argument about abortion but about the fact that the woman is finally getting a voice. Let’s face it majority of this church leaders are male, and by the way as a fact majority of all religious leaders in the world are male. It all started with the insecurities of a few back in history and that sense of paranoia is still rife.
I say concentrate on your flock. You have pedophiles to rid the society off (but hey, a confession and 10 Hail Mary’s later fixes it and if that’s the case you shouldn’t worry ‘’they’’ won’t repeat it.
Plus if ‘’you’’ preach against contraception what do you expect is going to happen???
About those khadhi courts………………….. I have nothing to say apart from WTF (excuse my language)
Do you see any other religion up in arms about it? I’ll assume that they are well aware of the fact that it doesn’t really affect them. Plus one would assume that the main courts are Christian courts and just put a sock on it.
‘’You’’ all own half of this country and now ‘’you’’ all are scared that finally local mwananchi is going to get in on a piece of the action. In fact some had 24 years to do something about it and well….we all know how that ended.
Fact of the matter is that these ‘’contentious issues’’ are laced with testosterone. Yeah! I said it.
It all boils down to GREED, FEAR AND DESIRE FOR POWER.
Have been holding it in too much, but we all know that I had to say something at some point.
Well let’s see the three biggest contentious issues are Abortion, khadhi courts and land ownership
Let’s just be real, do those even qualify as ‘’contentious issues’’?? Seeing how it’s just a bunch of disgruntled religious (church) leaders and an ex president and his dodgy cronies who are crying foul.
What is the meaning of democracy? there are two principles that any definition of democracy includes: equality and freedom. These principles are reflected in all citizens being equal before the law and having equal access to power.and the freedom of its citizens is secured by legitimized rights and liberties which are generally protected by a constitution.
Well the there we have it, if majority rules ………… get with the program
But really let’s look at these ‘’issues’’ for what they really are.
Abortions have, are and will always be performed. It’s a procedure as old as prostitution. Am I saying that all should adopt the ‘pro-choice’ school of thought? No. all am saying is that these church’ leaders’’ should stop manipulating that clause to influence the public.
‘’They’’ say it’s better to lose the water than the port’’ seeing as to how you could always go back to the river.
But I believe that this is not even an argument about abortion but about the fact that the woman is finally getting a voice. Let’s face it majority of this church leaders are male, and by the way as a fact majority of all religious leaders in the world are male. It all started with the insecurities of a few back in history and that sense of paranoia is still rife.
I say concentrate on your flock. You have pedophiles to rid the society off (but hey, a confession and 10 Hail Mary’s later fixes it and if that’s the case you shouldn’t worry ‘’they’’ won’t repeat it.
Plus if ‘’you’’ preach against contraception what do you expect is going to happen???
About those khadhi courts………………….. I have nothing to say apart from WTF (excuse my language)
Do you see any other religion up in arms about it? I’ll assume that they are well aware of the fact that it doesn’t really affect them. Plus one would assume that the main courts are Christian courts and just put a sock on it.
‘’You’’ all own half of this country and now ‘’you’’ all are scared that finally local mwananchi is going to get in on a piece of the action. In fact some had 24 years to do something about it and well….we all know how that ended.
Fact of the matter is that these ‘’contentious issues’’ are laced with testosterone. Yeah! I said it.
It all boils down to GREED, FEAR AND DESIRE FOR POWER.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
UP COMMING GETAWAY
For like the past two weeks my ''Chama'' members and I have been so excited about this upcoming Easter getaway. And so my email inbox has been flooded by instant messages with everyone trying to outdo the others excitement. And I must admit I can’t wait. I think I need the destruction....you know with chasing empty promises of employment all week (in fact week after week).
From the last time I was on holiday I kind of had psyche to do a lot. For example there were constant blog updates, I had energy enough for a whole football match, and then something somewhere just didn’t click.
although I still believe that just negative energy and probably with the sun, sand and a lil' RnR (of course together with the toppings of some bubbly, maybe a cocktail or two) I’ll be back and ready to continue spreading my fabulousness to you all(no am not vain)
So yes maybe am hoping for like some special awakening or inspiration or better still my big break.
And no am not lazy so note i did not use the word miracle.
Everybody has their day I want mine, am tired of waiting and am not sure if I shall still have the energy if it comes out of my planned time( and am not sure when time out is though)
Goto get to my scrable game.............maybe it might come from there and not the trip
I highly doubt though :-)
see you next update (cross ye fingers)
From the last time I was on holiday I kind of had psyche to do a lot. For example there were constant blog updates, I had energy enough for a whole football match, and then something somewhere just didn’t click.
although I still believe that just negative energy and probably with the sun, sand and a lil' RnR (of course together with the toppings of some bubbly, maybe a cocktail or two) I’ll be back and ready to continue spreading my fabulousness to you all(no am not vain)
So yes maybe am hoping for like some special awakening or inspiration or better still my big break.
And no am not lazy so note i did not use the word miracle.
Everybody has their day I want mine, am tired of waiting and am not sure if I shall still have the energy if it comes out of my planned time( and am not sure when time out is though)
Goto get to my scrable game.............maybe it might come from there and not the trip
I highly doubt though :-)
see you next update (cross ye fingers)
Thursday, March 25, 2010
WHY THE SILENCE??? SHIT HAPPENS
I know! I know. it's been exactly two months since my last update. What can I say.........Shit happens.
and in my case a whole lot of shit has happened.
And the last thing I want to do is weigh anyone down with my shit.
(I choose to use the word ''shit'' because ''issues'' or ''problems'' are such weighty and overrated words)
But all I can say is that i have really missed my blog, there was alot and still is a lot of stuff to write about but then you know ''shit happened''.
OK now hopefully we back to business.
so other than that what has been going on......well i've been playing a whole lot of scrable.
its funny how i can actually say am addicted to scrable (thanks to some book am reading on breaking everydays addictions) hahahahah yep thats what it has come too plus it actually is a page turner.
and have i learnt any new words?? well one.........oxymoron
ask me not what it means i just coppied it from someone and i have never bothered to find out its meaning.(no am not going to anyway)
as i am writting this a game is underway and since my multitasking abilities are a bit down i goto bid you fare well.
but ill be back later on
and in my case a whole lot of shit has happened.
And the last thing I want to do is weigh anyone down with my shit.
(I choose to use the word ''shit'' because ''issues'' or ''problems'' are such weighty and overrated words)
But all I can say is that i have really missed my blog, there was alot and still is a lot of stuff to write about but then you know ''shit happened''.
OK now hopefully we back to business.
so other than that what has been going on......well i've been playing a whole lot of scrable.
its funny how i can actually say am addicted to scrable (thanks to some book am reading on breaking everydays addictions) hahahahah yep thats what it has come too plus it actually is a page turner.
and have i learnt any new words?? well one.........oxymoron
ask me not what it means i just coppied it from someone and i have never bothered to find out its meaning.(no am not going to anyway)
as i am writting this a game is underway and since my multitasking abilities are a bit down i goto bid you fare well.
but ill be back later on
Monday, January 25, 2010
LIFE
Its been a while since i was last here.....well what can I say? sometimes i just have too much to say that I really haven't yet figured out how to express it. (belive me it does happen)
Today watched the documentary on Farrah Fawcett and her fight with cancer....it brought me to tears.
(Here is the thing, am such a woose for these lifechanging movies and tv documentaries that its just pathetic).
Back to the point.
As she struggled with her disease she kept this journal and through out the documenatry she reads it out, its just so amazing and inspirational and just made me more convinced that i should push my dream even further.
I mean lets face it as cliche as this might sound, life is really short. as much as she was this hollywood hothrob and at the end of the day what inspired people the most was not her ''work'' but her awareness about the disease and her fight.
I want people to remember me for the work that I do and hopefully the change that will come with it( no am not dying, hopefully not for now)
funny joke i heard...."wanna hear God laugh? Tell him of your plan"
But this doesnt discourage me and let me clarify that with a bit of comforting words from an individual I look up to
"if you do good people will acuse you of selfish motives"
do good anyway
"if you secceede you will win false friends and sure enemies"
seccede anyway
"the good you do today will be forgetten anyway"
do good anyway
"THE BIGGEST PEOPLE WITH THE BIGGEST IDEAS CAN BE SHOT DOWN BY THE SMALLEST MINDS''
THINK BIG ANYWAY
"people follow underdogs but favour the top dogs"
fight for the underdog anyway
"what you spend years building can be destroyed in seconds"
build anyway
xoxo
till next time
Today watched the documentary on Farrah Fawcett and her fight with cancer....it brought me to tears.
(Here is the thing, am such a woose for these lifechanging movies and tv documentaries that its just pathetic).
Back to the point.
As she struggled with her disease she kept this journal and through out the documenatry she reads it out, its just so amazing and inspirational and just made me more convinced that i should push my dream even further.
I mean lets face it as cliche as this might sound, life is really short. as much as she was this hollywood hothrob and at the end of the day what inspired people the most was not her ''work'' but her awareness about the disease and her fight.
I want people to remember me for the work that I do and hopefully the change that will come with it( no am not dying, hopefully not for now)
funny joke i heard...."wanna hear God laugh? Tell him of your plan"
But this doesnt discourage me and let me clarify that with a bit of comforting words from an individual I look up to
"if you do good people will acuse you of selfish motives"
do good anyway
"if you secceede you will win false friends and sure enemies"
seccede anyway
"the good you do today will be forgetten anyway"
do good anyway
"THE BIGGEST PEOPLE WITH THE BIGGEST IDEAS CAN BE SHOT DOWN BY THE SMALLEST MINDS''
THINK BIG ANYWAY
"people follow underdogs but favour the top dogs"
fight for the underdog anyway
"what you spend years building can be destroyed in seconds"
build anyway
xoxo
till next time
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