When was the last time you wrote a letter???
I remeber the hours I would spend trying to put words that would excite my highschool boyfriend and the 10min it would take for me to jot down the millions of complains that I had about my hardknock life in highschool.
Then technology hit and well it all went downhill from there.
So not too long ago (Last year), I read a blog from one of my favourite bloggers and she had decided to start writting letters to crtain Individuals who have made an impact in her life (positive or negative). With all the enthusiasm on earth I decided that I shall also join her in her journey. But by now as you all know that somehow that fell on the side way. But now '' I have pulled my socks up '' and its now or never.
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Dear Friend,
I dont think that time is much of a factor when it comes to quantify a friendship, not that you can anyway, but actions.
The experiences that we have shared in the time that we have known each other is priceless and I wish you could see the smile i have on my face as I am writting this.
I giggle when I remember of the mischief we have been upto, the smiles, the silent fights, the laughter, the loves, success and failures.
You have tought me to appreciate the differences in others and through you i know what patience is. Believe me I am quite aware of my self and how ''slightly in ur face'' I might get, and I am aware that you love me.
Words cannot begin to thank you, and appreciate all the experiences that we share.
Memories we have created will last me my lifetime and all I have to say is I LOVE YOU.
yours S.
xoxo
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Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
CHAMPAGNE AND CAVIAR
I suffer from a very serious case of procrastination.....I have been wanting to write about this for so long but just couldn't get myself to do it. Better late than never I guess..
Then again this might actually be the right time to do it, i mean after I have calmed down and all. Lets not forget I am still bitter (working on it though).
For the past 3months i have been angry, at what? Well lets see.... the world, myself, my friends and basically a few of the people that i trusted.
As much as that may seem cowardly I belive that I do have the right to be angry. No human being can posibbly be on such high spirits without a once in a while backslide.
I will compare my life at this moment like that of a recovering alcoholic. I have Good SRAIGHT days and then comes the times when my weak willed self throws me back into the "Dark times".
If you are to ask anyone who is accuainted (No one really knows me) with me who I was they would probably let you in on this happy go lucky free spirited Individual.
I tell you that is not me, i am a compulsive , Obsessive , need to be in control insecure being just like ''wanjiku'' looking for approval and guidance.
It is only this honest look at myself that could explain the fall that subsequently led to this state of mind the past 3 months.
OOhh!! how I long for the day i will be what others see...... a notion I am aware I share with many out there.
I suffred what seemed to be the biggest failure and humiliation of my life; the realization that I had been dreaming and leaving a lie.
The sleepless nights, the near suicidal moments (too much of a coward though to go through with it) and the endless counseling from peers and family.
Life sure has a way of slowing us down, and I believe I might have had it all too much in my head and was sprinting during a full marathon (even God knew i wasn't going to finish that race).
This is my APOLOGY to all who spend there time trying to ''fix'' me, I chose to associate with catfish and beer COMPLETELY UNDERMINING YOUR EFFORTS.
Funny how you can expose individuals to champagne and caviar and their pallets still crave catfish and beer.
I have hopefully said my peace after the tears.
xoxo
Then again this might actually be the right time to do it, i mean after I have calmed down and all. Lets not forget I am still bitter (working on it though).
For the past 3months i have been angry, at what? Well lets see.... the world, myself, my friends and basically a few of the people that i trusted.
As much as that may seem cowardly I belive that I do have the right to be angry. No human being can posibbly be on such high spirits without a once in a while backslide.
I will compare my life at this moment like that of a recovering alcoholic. I have Good SRAIGHT days and then comes the times when my weak willed self throws me back into the "Dark times".
If you are to ask anyone who is accuainted (No one really knows me) with me who I was they would probably let you in on this happy go lucky free spirited Individual.
I tell you that is not me, i am a compulsive , Obsessive , need to be in control insecure being just like ''wanjiku'' looking for approval and guidance.
It is only this honest look at myself that could explain the fall that subsequently led to this state of mind the past 3 months.
OOhh!! how I long for the day i will be what others see...... a notion I am aware I share with many out there.
I suffred what seemed to be the biggest failure and humiliation of my life; the realization that I had been dreaming and leaving a lie.
The sleepless nights, the near suicidal moments (too much of a coward though to go through with it) and the endless counseling from peers and family.
Life sure has a way of slowing us down, and I believe I might have had it all too much in my head and was sprinting during a full marathon (even God knew i wasn't going to finish that race).
This is my APOLOGY to all who spend there time trying to ''fix'' me, I chose to associate with catfish and beer COMPLETELY UNDERMINING YOUR EFFORTS.
Funny how you can expose individuals to champagne and caviar and their pallets still crave catfish and beer.
I have hopefully said my peace after the tears.
xoxo
Thursday, December 16, 2010
COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS
I just met the most exhausted man i have seen in my life. Am still in shock and his image is permanently embedded in my head. The look of ''OH! FUCK! please tell you got something for me''.
(exhausted is the only word that was going through my head)
I am shaking at the thought of all the problems he might possibly have gone through and that he already has.
Hesbon. Thats his name.
Hasn't rained in Nairobi for a couple of days, but he looked like he was in the middle of a mudslide. But then again am assuming that he comes from the city (or even its environs).......my apologies.
Had a bad mood all day. who am i kidding this whole month has just been bad mood month.
And as Hesbon entered didn't even bother to raise my head in recognition and what greeted him was a blunt ''SEMA?'' ( I felt like such a 'public servant' )
Am sure Hesbon could read the Pity written all over my face and that I can bet disgusted him. How many times, I wonder . does he get the same look.??
Unfortunately I had nothing for him.
Just that encounter showed me that I have nothing to be sad about.
So this individual took my heart and run it over, backed up and run it over again just to make sure that am down. Such a pity that i let this actually happen, so should I compare myself with Hesbon??
Pathetic to do so, and despite my foul mood i actually do have a smile on my face. Not that am happy because there people out there who may be worse off than me....... but somewhat YES am happy that my ''problems'' are just but a droplet in the ocean.
If you think about it... maybe that is a sign that greater debuckles are set along my path.
Then again i could be mistaken about his demeanor, maybe he is just old and still enjoys working.
I highly doubt it though.
funny how the most ''insignificant'' of all creatures make the biggest impact on our lives'' NGOIRI MUNGAI
XOXO
(exhausted is the only word that was going through my head)
I am shaking at the thought of all the problems he might possibly have gone through and that he already has.
Hesbon. Thats his name.
Hasn't rained in Nairobi for a couple of days, but he looked like he was in the middle of a mudslide. But then again am assuming that he comes from the city (or even its environs).......my apologies.
Had a bad mood all day. who am i kidding this whole month has just been bad mood month.
And as Hesbon entered didn't even bother to raise my head in recognition and what greeted him was a blunt ''SEMA?'' ( I felt like such a 'public servant' )
Am sure Hesbon could read the Pity written all over my face and that I can bet disgusted him. How many times, I wonder . does he get the same look.??
Unfortunately I had nothing for him.
Just that encounter showed me that I have nothing to be sad about.
So this individual took my heart and run it over, backed up and run it over again just to make sure that am down. Such a pity that i let this actually happen, so should I compare myself with Hesbon??
Pathetic to do so, and despite my foul mood i actually do have a smile on my face. Not that am happy because there people out there who may be worse off than me....... but somewhat YES am happy that my ''problems'' are just but a droplet in the ocean.
If you think about it... maybe that is a sign that greater debuckles are set along my path.
Then again i could be mistaken about his demeanor, maybe he is just old and still enjoys working.
I highly doubt it though.
funny how the most ''insignificant'' of all creatures make the biggest impact on our lives'' NGOIRI MUNGAI
XOXO
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
ITS BEEN A WHILE
Wow! Haven't done this in a while and am actually full of guilt.
Last i was here was in April (#hiding face), I wonder why??
Who am i kidding, So I sort of lost myself there for a while .... this happens to the best of us by the way.
Alot has happened and its unfortunate that I did not share with you all my high's and lows........RELAX.........
Well in a nutshell its been a good year, the laughs the tears and all that other nonsense that comes along with it.
( I know that aint much help but oh well trying to depersonalize my blog, maybe i should think of writing about politics , sports , entertainment *DEAD*)
I am actually very exited about being back and cant wait "to hang out" ( so they say)
xoxoxo
see you next blog
Last i was here was in April (#hiding face), I wonder why??
Who am i kidding, So I sort of lost myself there for a while .... this happens to the best of us by the way.
Alot has happened and its unfortunate that I did not share with you all my high's and lows........RELAX.........
Well in a nutshell its been a good year, the laughs the tears and all that other nonsense that comes along with it.
( I know that aint much help but oh well trying to depersonalize my blog, maybe i should think of writing about politics , sports , entertainment *DEAD*)
I am actually very exited about being back and cant wait "to hang out" ( so they say)
xoxoxo
see you next blog
Thursday, April 15, 2010
ITS NOT WORTH THE HUSTLE
Am generally not a patient person but this week I think that I have quashed that much clung onto assumption.
Life is actually very funny come to think about it.
I have grown (yes in a week) to appreciate the consolation of a newspaper to an idler
(That is what has become of me this week.....and idler)
I read it (newspaper) top to bottom, every advert, article, obituary(in fact i know ''them'' by name) you name it i've read it.
Listened to all the music that i carry around with me (am surprised that i actually listen to all this sh#@) and replied every text and phone call in the hopes of a chart.
Why all this?? because i have decided to join those who claim to be building the nation.
But then again it was my choice and so let me suffer the consequences.....but not for long i tell you.....not for long
I started out this year with alot of positive energy and God help me i'll cling onto that till it kills me (you should think of doing the same too)
Plus am thinking at this rate my blog shall be once again quite active
Its finally lunch time and at least half the day was well spent online
now for my much loved newspaper for the rest of the day
xoxo
till next time(it might be sooner, maybe a couple of hours??........i don't know)
Life is actually very funny come to think about it.
I have grown (yes in a week) to appreciate the consolation of a newspaper to an idler
(That is what has become of me this week.....and idler)
I read it (newspaper) top to bottom, every advert, article, obituary(in fact i know ''them'' by name) you name it i've read it.
Listened to all the music that i carry around with me (am surprised that i actually listen to all this sh#@) and replied every text and phone call in the hopes of a chart.
Why all this?? because i have decided to join those who claim to be building the nation.
But then again it was my choice and so let me suffer the consequences.....but not for long i tell you.....not for long
I started out this year with alot of positive energy and God help me i'll cling onto that till it kills me (you should think of doing the same too)
Plus am thinking at this rate my blog shall be once again quite active
Its finally lunch time and at least half the day was well spent online
now for my much loved newspaper for the rest of the day
xoxo
till next time(it might be sooner, maybe a couple of hours??........i don't know)
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
''CONTENTIOUS ISSUES''
Constitution, constitution, constitution
Have been holding it in too much, but we all know that I had to say something at some point.
Well let’s see the three biggest contentious issues are Abortion, khadhi courts and land ownership
Let’s just be real, do those even qualify as ‘’contentious issues’’?? Seeing how it’s just a bunch of disgruntled religious (church) leaders and an ex president and his dodgy cronies who are crying foul.
What is the meaning of democracy? there are two principles that any definition of democracy includes: equality and freedom. These principles are reflected in all citizens being equal before the law and having equal access to power.and the freedom of its citizens is secured by legitimized rights and liberties which are generally protected by a constitution.
Well the there we have it, if majority rules ………… get with the program
But really let’s look at these ‘’issues’’ for what they really are.
Abortions have, are and will always be performed. It’s a procedure as old as prostitution. Am I saying that all should adopt the ‘pro-choice’ school of thought? No. all am saying is that these church’ leaders’’ should stop manipulating that clause to influence the public.
‘’They’’ say it’s better to lose the water than the port’’ seeing as to how you could always go back to the river.
But I believe that this is not even an argument about abortion but about the fact that the woman is finally getting a voice. Let’s face it majority of this church leaders are male, and by the way as a fact majority of all religious leaders in the world are male. It all started with the insecurities of a few back in history and that sense of paranoia is still rife.
I say concentrate on your flock. You have pedophiles to rid the society off (but hey, a confession and 10 Hail Mary’s later fixes it and if that’s the case you shouldn’t worry ‘’they’’ won’t repeat it.
Plus if ‘’you’’ preach against contraception what do you expect is going to happen???
About those khadhi courts………………….. I have nothing to say apart from WTF (excuse my language)
Do you see any other religion up in arms about it? I’ll assume that they are well aware of the fact that it doesn’t really affect them. Plus one would assume that the main courts are Christian courts and just put a sock on it.
‘’You’’ all own half of this country and now ‘’you’’ all are scared that finally local mwananchi is going to get in on a piece of the action. In fact some had 24 years to do something about it and well….we all know how that ended.
Fact of the matter is that these ‘’contentious issues’’ are laced with testosterone. Yeah! I said it.
It all boils down to GREED, FEAR AND DESIRE FOR POWER.
Have been holding it in too much, but we all know that I had to say something at some point.
Well let’s see the three biggest contentious issues are Abortion, khadhi courts and land ownership
Let’s just be real, do those even qualify as ‘’contentious issues’’?? Seeing how it’s just a bunch of disgruntled religious (church) leaders and an ex president and his dodgy cronies who are crying foul.
What is the meaning of democracy? there are two principles that any definition of democracy includes: equality and freedom. These principles are reflected in all citizens being equal before the law and having equal access to power.and the freedom of its citizens is secured by legitimized rights and liberties which are generally protected by a constitution.
Well the there we have it, if majority rules ………… get with the program
But really let’s look at these ‘’issues’’ for what they really are.
Abortions have, are and will always be performed. It’s a procedure as old as prostitution. Am I saying that all should adopt the ‘pro-choice’ school of thought? No. all am saying is that these church’ leaders’’ should stop manipulating that clause to influence the public.
‘’They’’ say it’s better to lose the water than the port’’ seeing as to how you could always go back to the river.
But I believe that this is not even an argument about abortion but about the fact that the woman is finally getting a voice. Let’s face it majority of this church leaders are male, and by the way as a fact majority of all religious leaders in the world are male. It all started with the insecurities of a few back in history and that sense of paranoia is still rife.
I say concentrate on your flock. You have pedophiles to rid the society off (but hey, a confession and 10 Hail Mary’s later fixes it and if that’s the case you shouldn’t worry ‘’they’’ won’t repeat it.
Plus if ‘’you’’ preach against contraception what do you expect is going to happen???
About those khadhi courts………………….. I have nothing to say apart from WTF (excuse my language)
Do you see any other religion up in arms about it? I’ll assume that they are well aware of the fact that it doesn’t really affect them. Plus one would assume that the main courts are Christian courts and just put a sock on it.
‘’You’’ all own half of this country and now ‘’you’’ all are scared that finally local mwananchi is going to get in on a piece of the action. In fact some had 24 years to do something about it and well….we all know how that ended.
Fact of the matter is that these ‘’contentious issues’’ are laced with testosterone. Yeah! I said it.
It all boils down to GREED, FEAR AND DESIRE FOR POWER.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
UP COMMING GETAWAY
For like the past two weeks my ''Chama'' members and I have been so excited about this upcoming Easter getaway. And so my email inbox has been flooded by instant messages with everyone trying to outdo the others excitement. And I must admit I can’t wait. I think I need the destruction....you know with chasing empty promises of employment all week (in fact week after week).
From the last time I was on holiday I kind of had psyche to do a lot. For example there were constant blog updates, I had energy enough for a whole football match, and then something somewhere just didn’t click.
although I still believe that just negative energy and probably with the sun, sand and a lil' RnR (of course together with the toppings of some bubbly, maybe a cocktail or two) I’ll be back and ready to continue spreading my fabulousness to you all(no am not vain)
So yes maybe am hoping for like some special awakening or inspiration or better still my big break.
And no am not lazy so note i did not use the word miracle.
Everybody has their day I want mine, am tired of waiting and am not sure if I shall still have the energy if it comes out of my planned time( and am not sure when time out is though)
Goto get to my scrable game.............maybe it might come from there and not the trip
I highly doubt though :-)
see you next update (cross ye fingers)
From the last time I was on holiday I kind of had psyche to do a lot. For example there were constant blog updates, I had energy enough for a whole football match, and then something somewhere just didn’t click.
although I still believe that just negative energy and probably with the sun, sand and a lil' RnR (of course together with the toppings of some bubbly, maybe a cocktail or two) I’ll be back and ready to continue spreading my fabulousness to you all(no am not vain)
So yes maybe am hoping for like some special awakening or inspiration or better still my big break.
And no am not lazy so note i did not use the word miracle.
Everybody has their day I want mine, am tired of waiting and am not sure if I shall still have the energy if it comes out of my planned time( and am not sure when time out is though)
Goto get to my scrable game.............maybe it might come from there and not the trip
I highly doubt though :-)
see you next update (cross ye fingers)
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