Legalise it!

A great many people assume that they are thinking while they are merely rearranging their prejudices - William James

An idea just popped in my head, so I'll make this short.

You know you'd think that with everything going wrong these days volunteer-ism would go down. On the contrary it has gone up, way up. But, of course it has, thats the beauty of an incompetent government. Its their plan to act like idiots till people figure it out that they have to fend for themselves.

Given that prostitution is a multi billion dollar industry all over the world anyway, why not tax it? Why not use it to help build hospitals and schools that politicians promise but never get around to do anyway because they are too too busy hanging out with the hookers.
Sex workers are begging to be recognized and treated as equals to all those who declare themselves working class in Kenya.
We have a deficiency too big to count, why not use that money to help our people?
There is a method to all this lunacy. If you look behind all that is going on there is always a message, an idea and that is something.

Dear Politician,

My previous post has inspired me to dedicate this one to my "dear" politician. Here is a letter that I have longed write to you for a while now.

Dear Politician,
How are you? I sure hope that you are doing well.
I have been trying vehemently to get a hold of you, but all in vain. I know you have been busy and so have not had time to visit the "village". Here is a quick rap up of whats been happening.
Well I shall start with the good news, the village officially has 5 cows. Mrs Mwanzia's daughter got married off and a healthy cow was her bride price .I am proud to say the cow came with child, a double celebration for us. On a more Somber note, Mr Otieno our village elder died last month. Remember him? he was the one who headed up the youth wing of your political campaign last election. Well old age finally caught up with him I guess. I was surprised that you did not show up for the funeral, but am sure you had very pressing matters to attend to.We unfortunately had to slaughter two cows (Tradition dictates) so as to rest his soul. So I guess the celebration of the bride price was premature.

It has been great to see you came back last week. I tried to meet you but I see you are a very important individual now and so its impossible to get past your passe. I am aware that the elections are soon and you will only be busier with your campaign, but I have a few concerns that I think you should address before you set out your new manifesto. Here goes

• Job Creation:- Well, you did promise me that "big" job in the "big" City. How my family was excited . I still am packed and ready to go, Been waiting 4 years now but am patient and I know that you will soon call me. My fellow peers, well those not drowning their sorrows and desperation in all the ridiculously cheap alcohol, have formed our new security unit. You do know our chief is really under staffed so they help out a lot. I must admit it is quite costly but at least we get to sleep "safe" at night.
• Re-afforestation :-Boy was I glad when all those seedlings were brought to the village on World Reafforestation Day. Was sure we broke the world record on number of tree to be planted by a small village. It was great to see you get your shinny new leather shoes dusty, you really got into it there. And all those people willing to take our pictures for free, now that was just so super. You should have seen all of us hurdled in Kipruto's bar trying to catch a glimpse of some of our faces.Well, maybe we were too many to appear on that clip, but its good that you appeared, we had "one of us"on TV.Well unfortunately the seedlings did not survive that years drought. Logic demanded that we save the water for our livestock which ate the trees anyway. They (trees) had no chance.
• Drought Relief Program :- We sure could use those boreholes and wells. They will really come in handy, I mean we could irrigate our land and food will be in plenty. Am sure your very expensive trees would have survived that wrath of starving livestock. The village river is seasonal and now we are forced to beg from our "neighbors". They don't like us much, I wonder why? but they sure did not show any mercy to our church after you took the parliamentary seat. We forgive them though, No hard feelings.
• Infrastructure :-  The fine young contractor from the city did arrive. With a whole lot of fancy equipment and big machinery. Dug up half the road and stuck sticks on the ground as markings (I helped pick out the sticks by the way). Well he promised to be back and you know we haven't seen him since. Now we no longer have a road and the bus will not get to our village. We are forced to beg from our "neighbors" once again. The sugar mill is also there and sugarcane farming has now become a nightmare and no one bothers anymore.

Well I don't want to sound too demanding and ungrateful. Thank you so much for the t shirts (the whole village is a buzz with their new attire) and for the umbrellas (although it doesn't rain here much). Am also very sorry for all the legal drama you got going on. I was also infuriated at all those baseless allegations thrown in your face. how dare they accuse you of embezzling our CDS account (what is that by the way? Legal jargon?). If you want my advise, ignore them. They are just your political rivals out to taint your name and your image. But take heart the lord will not forsake you.
Well that's all for now. Hope to hear from you soon.

Yours adoringly,
Constituant 

Country Of Beggars ?

It is finally here, that season where Kenya goes through catastrophe after catastrophe. Then again isnt this the norm all year round? No, Am talking of that time just before the election and right in the middle of a scandle, when all sort of calamities rock our nation (Nothing to do with mother nature by the way).

Well, with some "Political Big wigs" marred with all sorts of legal "problems". From "allegations" of corruption here at "home" , to their international cases of CRIMES AGAINST HUMANITY at the Hague.
Half the parliament embroiled in some legal case at the courts challenging their parliamentary seat.

The Shilling has definitely seen better days, with the raise in fuel prices the cost of living is so high am "surprised" the whole country isn't living on less than a dollar a day. Despite the ridiculously prices placed on basic commodities, those same commodities are as scarce as the hope of World peace.

Let our leaders not forget how "We got their backs". In the middle of all this problems we manage to set half a slum on fire; "We" are poor and that liter of siphoned "free" petrol will go along way. We drink our selves to the grave in the name of "cheap" alcohol. We drive our cars recklessly because time waits for no man and we "gotta chase that paper". We are too quick to forget the promises of our so called leaders because no one holds them accountable.

And in the wake of all this nonsense we rush to our "cronies" on social media and of course through our very "vigilant" media asking Kenyans to please contribute to help out our brothers and sisters. It was "KENYANS FOR KENYA" Lets feed our fellow country men and women. Of course because their MP needs the funds slated for a new borehole to pay off his huge bank loans.
Then comes "A SHILLING FOR SINAI" Lets help out our other brothers and sisters rebuild their lives after that horrible fire halted their lives. That silly pipeline just had to run right under their houses? Hoards of unemployed youth are lining the streets with tins at hand, begging on behalf of the victims.

"Tunaomba serikali itusaidie". Serikali gani? Sorry Serikali is busy redirecting desperately needed fund to offset their unpaid taxes and cover all their legal fees.Lest you forget that their campaign kitty's cannot possibly be empty. No! Serikali needs a "break" to focus on themselves for now.

We cannot even dare pray to the Lord for help, Nope! Because HE has more important things to tend to; Let the Lord find us a "Husband" or "Wife". Then again He doesn't seem to understand "Kenyanise"  so lets "hire" someone else to do that for us.

International Community .... blah blah blah! What do I know about those? Lets just get a soft loan to help our ailing shilling, We'll face the repercussions in the next budget; Let the "Smokers" and "Alcoholics" pay for it right?

You know the Greeks didn't write obituaries. They only asked one question after a man died: "Did he have passion?".

Taking up a challenge highlighted by a good friend over the weekend. I could see a bit of hurt that he had as he explained some of the feedback he has received from his latest project. The dissappointment when you realise that not everyone will have the same vision as you. The lack of appreciation on something that you have put your your heart and soul in. This total disrespect from those who have not the "balls" to come up with anything that could remotely expose their interests. Then Again it is true that everybody is entitled to their opinion.

I have always recognised the passion that he has for alot of different aspects of his life, from personal to (Not so much) proffessional to his hobbies. And then came the question "What would it take to get you motivated?" This is in reference to why I seldom blog. Of which I always respond with "Oh! I have writers block, am just not inspired."

Then it all downed on me ....... Is it that I have writers block? ( Because I really don't think that I am a writer) Or is it that am just lazy (Been meaning to start my book for years now........ well not much has happened in that arena). Then again could it be that I am afraid of all the negative feed back that might come my way.

I wonder where my passion went to? And then again what am I passionate about? Ist it too late for me? I mean at my age I should atleast have an Idea of what it is exactly that drives me. And as I contunually strive to find all the answers to my a million and one questions, I can only but admire those in my life with such uncannung passion about different aspects of their lives. I want that. I want people to remember my passion and contribution to the world more than anything else. I mean dont we all want to be remembered that way?

So yes, I now get what the challenge was, close my eyes and just get in there. Not everybody might "like" or appreciate your efforts, but you did it anyway. So I sure do hope that this post will be a challange to someone out there and a thank you to others who may have contributed to it.


p.s Don't ever think that your work could ever be foolish or amateur (wink)


xoxo

THE IDIOT RUINED MY HAIR!

Funny how I am always apologizing for my absence and lack of consistency with my blogging. Well I shall mention it no more (oops!)
Have you ever been one of those that wonder "how can one be such a *&^#*" and 5 minutes later you are just that same monster you were busy describing to a friend.
Well today was an awsome day for me up until about 3pm in the afternoon. Took care of all my errands and so had time to kill at the hair salon.
Many women usually take this time to sit and reflect. Not that the Salon environment is one that is condusive, why with all the noise and gossip, who can really focus? But the maggazines that they give you to help you pass those 2-3 hours are the ones that trigger this reflective mood.
The feeling of guilt because some individual out there has undergone soo much in life and still has the energy to move on and achieve great things.
The feeling of regret because you should have made a diffent choice in life and maybe, just maybe you would be much better off.
The feeling of failure when you realise individuals just like you maybe even younger are getting recognition and satisfaction out of their lives and you are in the middle of no where.
Then the pessimist in you comes out and you console your self thinking that all the above may be a tad bit exaggerated just so that the magazine may sell extra coppies. And by the way, do we all have to pass through persecution for success to come our way? Didnt Jesus Christ already do that for us?
As I was saying after being convinced to even do your nails and throw in a facial you expect to come out not only looking like a million bucks but feeling like one.
If my memory serves me right I did ask HIM to make sure my colour turned out right.
To my dismay THE IDIOT RUINED MY HAIR. Brown does absolutely nothing for me.
And so my otherwise perfect day was forever ruined. I have been a moody goose all day and If this is not fixed tomorro Lord Have Mercy.

xoxo

IF YOU ARE GOING TO TAKE OUT A LONGTERM CAR LOAN, DONT BUY A SHORT TERM CAR

I have been struggling with this issue all my life, and so has a good majority of you my people;Trying to match my actions to the intended outcomes. And I must say i have not entirely been successful but am sure there has got to be something positive that has come out of it all.

I have always been one who writes from my own life experiences, and I really do try to rationalize a situation before i put down my thoughts, That unfortunately doesn't go so well when it comes to me thinking before I speak ( i promise that i am working on that vehemently)
This year has been quite the challenge, and a lot has changed in my life that I feel as though i have lost a bit of control. Its that annoying feeling you get when you have no idea on how to fix a PROBLEM.


We all are managers to some sort of degree. I always considered myself a tough, Get it together and fix it kind. Reality of this is that I am the only one who wins and my "people" lose. So what does this mean?? I try be the nice, supportive, participatory type??Problem with this is that I lose and my "people" win. What then is the correct mix???

I must put it to you though that a PROBLEM only exists if there is a difference between what is actually happening and what YOU desire to happen. If YOU cannot identify what you would like to happen, then you don't have a problem YET you're just complaining.
Embrace the saying that goes "mind your own business" (It is a saying right??) and this is actually I believe the Key to being a very successful mix, "TOUGH IN A NICE WAY".

Therefore what is the point to all this? "Help people reach their full potential, Catch them doing something right"

See you next update
xoxo

LETTER TO MY BEST FRIEND

When was the last time you wrote a letter???
I remeber the hours I would spend trying to put words that would excite my highschool boyfriend and the 10min it would take for me to jot down the millions of complains that I had about my hardknock life in highschool.
Then technology hit and well it all went downhill from there.
So not too long ago (Last year), I read a blog from one of my favourite bloggers and she had decided to start writting letters to crtain Individuals who have made an impact in her life (positive or negative). With all the enthusiasm on earth I decided that I shall also join her in her journey. But by now as you all know that somehow that fell on the side way. But now '' I have pulled my socks up '' and its now or never.

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Dear Friend,
I dont think that time is much of a factor when it comes to quantify a friendship, not that you can anyway, but actions.
The experiences that we have shared in the time that we have known each other is priceless and I wish you could see the smile i have on my face as I am writting this.
I giggle when I remember of the mischief we have been upto, the smiles, the silent fights, the laughter, the loves, success and failures.
You have tought me to appreciate the differences in others and through you i know what patience is. Believe me I am quite aware of my self and how ''slightly in ur face'' I might get, and I am aware that you love me.
Words cannot begin to thank you, and appreciate all the experiences that we share.
Memories we have created will last me my lifetime and all I have to say is I LOVE YOU.

yours S.
xoxo

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CHAMPAGNE AND CAVIAR

I suffer from a very serious case of procrastination.....I have been wanting to write about this for so long but just couldn't get myself to do it. Better late than never I guess..

Then again this might actually be the right time to do it, i mean after I have calmed down and all. Lets not forget I am still bitter (working on it though).
For the past 3months i have been angry, at what? Well lets see.... the world, myself, my friends and basically a few of the people that i trusted.
As much as that may seem cowardly I belive that I do have the right to be angry. No human being can posibbly be on such high spirits without a once in a while backslide.
I will compare my life at this moment like that of a recovering alcoholic. I have Good SRAIGHT days and then comes the times when my weak willed self throws me back into the "Dark times".

If you are to ask anyone who is accuainted (No one really knows me) with me who I was they would probably let you in on this happy go lucky free spirited Individual.
I tell you that is not me, i am a compulsive , Obsessive , need to be in control insecure being just like ''wanjiku'' looking for approval and guidance.
It is only this honest look at myself that could explain the fall that subsequently led to this state of mind the past 3 months.

OOhh!! how I long for the day i will be what others see...... a notion I am aware I share with many out there.

I suffred what seemed to be the biggest failure and humiliation of my life; the realization that I had been dreaming and leaving a lie.
The sleepless nights, the near suicidal moments (too much of a coward though to go through with it) and the endless counseling from peers and family.

Life sure has a way of slowing us down, and I believe I might have had it all too much in my head and was sprinting during a full marathon (even God knew i wasn't going to finish that race).
This is my APOLOGY to all who spend there time trying to ''fix'' me, I chose to associate with catfish and beer COMPLETELY UNDERMINING YOUR EFFORTS.
Funny how you can expose individuals to champagne and caviar and their pallets still crave catfish and beer.
I have hopefully said my peace after the tears.

xoxo

COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS

I just met the most exhausted man i have seen in my life. Am still in shock and his image is permanently embedded in my head. The look of ''OH! FUCK! please tell you got something for me''.
(exhausted is the only word that was going through my head)
I am shaking at the thought of all the problems he might possibly have gone through and that he already has.
Hesbon. Thats his name.
Hasn't rained in Nairobi for a couple of days, but he looked like he was in the middle of a mudslide. But then again am assuming that he comes from the city (or even its environs).......my apologies.
Had a bad mood all day. who am i kidding this whole month has just been bad mood month.
And as Hesbon entered didn't even bother to raise my head in recognition and what greeted him was a blunt ''SEMA?'' ( I felt like such a 'public servant' )
Am sure Hesbon could read the Pity written all over my face and that I can bet disgusted him. How many times, I wonder . does he get the same look.??
Unfortunately I had nothing for him.
Just that encounter showed me that I have nothing to be sad about.
So this individual took my heart and run it over, backed up and run it over again just to make sure that am down. Such a pity that i let this actually happen, so should I compare myself with Hesbon??
Pathetic to do so, and despite my foul mood i actually do have a smile on my face. Not that am happy because there people out there who may be worse off than me....... but somewhat YES am happy that my ''problems'' are just but a droplet in the ocean.
If you think about it... maybe that is a sign that greater debuckles are set along my path.
Then again i could be mistaken about his demeanor, maybe he is just old and still enjoys working.
I highly doubt it though.

funny how the most ''insignificant'' of all creatures make the biggest impact on our lives'' NGOIRI MUNGAI

XOXO

ITS BEEN A WHILE

Wow! Haven't done this in a while and am actually full of guilt.
Last i was here was in April (#hiding face), I wonder why??
Who am i kidding, So I sort of lost myself there for a while .... this happens to the best of us by the way.
Alot has happened and its unfortunate that I did not share with you all my high's and lows........RELAX.........
Well in a nutshell its been a good year, the laughs the tears and all that other nonsense that comes along with it.
( I know that aint much help but oh well trying to depersonalize my blog, maybe i should think of writing about politics , sports , entertainment *DEAD*)
I am actually very exited about being back and cant wait "to hang out" ( so they say)

xoxoxo
see you next blog

ITS NOT WORTH THE HUSTLE

Am generally not a patient person but this week I think that I have quashed that much clung onto assumption.
Life is actually very funny come to think about it.
I have grown (yes in a week) to appreciate the consolation of a newspaper to an idler
(That is what has become of me this week.....and idler)
I read it (newspaper) top to bottom, every advert, article, obituary(in fact i know ''them'' by name) you name it i've read it.
 Listened to all the music that i carry around with me (am surprised that i actually listen to all this sh#@) and replied every text and phone call in the hopes of a chart.
Why all this?? because i have decided to join those who claim to be building the nation.
But then again it was my choice and so let me suffer the consequences.....but not for long i tell you.....not for long
I started out this year with alot of positive energy and God help me i'll cling onto that till it kills me (you should think of doing the same too)
Plus am thinking at this rate my blog shall be once again quite active
Its finally lunch time and at least half the day was well spent online
now for my much loved newspaper for the rest of the day
xoxo
till next time(it might be sooner, maybe a couple of hours??........i don't know)

''CONTENTIOUS ISSUES''

Constitution, constitution, constitution

Have been holding it in too much, but we all know that I had to say something at some point.


Well let’s see the three biggest contentious issues are Abortion, khadhi courts and land ownership

Let’s just be real, do those even qualify as ‘’contentious issues’’?? Seeing how it’s just a bunch of disgruntled religious (church) leaders and an ex president and his dodgy cronies who are crying foul.

What is the meaning of democracy? there are two principles that any definition of democracy includes: equality and freedom. These principles are reflected in all citizens being equal before the law and having equal access to power.and the freedom of its citizens is secured by legitimized rights and liberties which are generally protected by a constitution.

Well the there we have it, if majority rules ………… get with the program

But really let’s look at these ‘’issues’’ for what they really are.

Abortions have, are and will always be performed. It’s a procedure as old as prostitution. Am I saying that all should adopt the ‘pro-choice’ school of thought? No. all am saying is that these church’ leaders’’ should stop manipulating that clause to influence the public.

‘’They’’ say it’s better to lose the water than the port’’ seeing as to how you could always go back to the river.

But I believe that this is not even an argument about abortion but about the fact that the woman is finally getting a voice. Let’s face it majority of this church leaders are male, and by the way as a fact majority of all religious leaders in the world are male. It all started with the insecurities of a few back in history and that sense of paranoia is still rife.

I say concentrate on your flock. You have pedophiles to rid the society off (but hey, a confession and 10 Hail Mary’s later fixes it and if that’s the case you shouldn’t worry ‘’they’’ won’t repeat it.

Plus if ‘’you’’ preach against contraception what do you expect is going to happen???

About those khadhi courts………………….. I have nothing to say apart from WTF (excuse my language)

Do you see any other religion up in arms about it? I’ll assume that they are well aware of the fact that it doesn’t really affect them. Plus one would assume that the main courts are Christian courts and just put a sock on it.

‘’You’’ all own half of this country and now ‘’you’’ all are scared that finally local mwananchi is going to get in on a piece of the action. In fact some had 24 years to do something about it and well….we all know how that ended.

Fact of the matter is that these ‘’contentious issues’’ are laced with testosterone. Yeah! I said it.

It all boils down to GREED, FEAR AND DESIRE FOR POWER.

UP COMMING GETAWAY

For like the past two weeks my ''Chama'' members and I have been so excited about this upcoming Easter getaway. And so my email inbox has been flooded by instant messages with everyone trying to outdo the others excitement. And I must admit I can’t wait. I think I need the destruction....you know with chasing empty promises of employment all week (in fact week after week).


From the last time I was on holiday I kind of had psyche to do a lot. For example there were constant blog updates, I had energy enough for a whole football match, and then something somewhere just didn’t click.

although I still believe that just negative energy and probably with the sun, sand and a lil' RnR (of course together with the toppings of some bubbly, maybe a cocktail or two) I’ll be back and ready to continue spreading my fabulousness to you all(no am not vain)

So yes maybe am hoping for like some special awakening or inspiration or better still my big break.
And no am not lazy so note i did not use the word miracle.
Everybody has their day I want mine, am tired of waiting and am not sure if I shall still have the energy if it comes out of my planned time( and am not sure when time out is though)

Goto get to my scrable game.............maybe it might come from there and not the trip
I highly doubt though  :-)
see you next update (cross ye fingers)

WHY THE SILENCE??? SHIT HAPPENS

I know! I know. it's been exactly two months since my last update. What can I say.........Shit happens.
and in my case a whole lot of shit has happened.
And the last thing I want to do is weigh anyone down with my shit.
(I choose to use the word ''shit'' because ''issues'' or ''problems'' are such weighty and overrated words)
But all I can say is that i have really missed my blog, there was alot and still is a lot of stuff to write about but then you know ''shit happened''.
 OK now hopefully we back to business.
so other than that what has been going on......well i've been playing a whole lot of scrable.
its funny how i can actually say am addicted to scrable (thanks to some book am reading on breaking everydays addictions) hahahahah yep thats what it has come too plus it actually is a page turner.
and have i learnt any new words?? well one.........oxymoron
ask me not what it means i just coppied it from someone and i have never bothered to find out its meaning.(no am not going to anyway)
as i am writting this a game is underway and since my multitasking abilities are a bit down i goto bid you fare well.
but ill be back later on

LIFE

Its been a while since i was last here.....well what can I say? sometimes i just have too much to say that I really haven't yet figured out how to express it. (belive me it does happen)
Today watched the documentary on Farrah Fawcett and her fight with cancer....it brought me to tears.
(Here is the thing, am such a woose for these lifechanging movies and tv documentaries that its just pathetic).
Back to the point.
As she struggled with her disease she kept this journal and through out the documenatry she reads it out, its just so amazing and inspirational and just made me more convinced that i should push my dream even further.
I mean lets face it as cliche as this might sound, life is really short. as much as she was this hollywood hothrob and at the end of the day what inspired people the most was not her ''work'' but her awareness about the disease and her fight.
I want people to remember me for the work that I do and hopefully the change that will come with it( no am not dying, hopefully not for now)
funny joke i heard...."wanna hear God laugh? Tell him of your plan"
But this doesnt discourage me and let me clarify that with a bit of comforting words from an individual I look up to

"if you do good people will acuse you of selfish motives"


do good anyway

"if you secceede you will win false friends and sure enemies"

seccede anyway

"the good you do today will be forgetten anyway"

do good anyway

"THE BIGGEST PEOPLE WITH THE BIGGEST IDEAS CAN BE SHOT DOWN BY THE SMALLEST MINDS''

THINK BIG ANYWAY

"people follow underdogs but favour the top dogs"

fight for the underdog anyway

"what you spend years building can be destroyed in seconds"

build anyway
 
xoxo
till next time

Am not really sure what to title this piece (and so i havent).
Today I received sad news about the passing of a great man. Dr. Alembi (KU)
I accredit him for being one of those who inspired me to start writting and opened a window for so many to express themselves through outlets that (we) would have never otherwise ventured into
" whatever you write has its own style and someone out there will be an avid follower" Thats what he once said to myself and a group of others who were exploring playwritting.
Those words have stuck in my head for the past 2years and have been my motivation throughout my (basically very young) witting adventure.
"look at it as an adventure"
Well Dr Alembi I took your words literaly and have kept them and all I can say is THANK YOU.
May the Lord rest your soul in eternal peace. You were an inspiration.

CROSSROADS

You know when 'they' say that you are going to reap what you sow, well guess what? its true( I know you all knew ,that rather obvious fact, but it just hit me now........big time).
I was talking to a friend on saturday night and we opened up a lil' bit( well its was actually alot, thanks in part to the doubles) discovering we have more in common than we had realised, and after telling her a bit of my story (from my point of view) she was amazed and said "wow! you have done so much at your age".
My point ??? well have I done too much and achieved nothing? I am always complaining that no one realises what i have achieved so far, but I think am going about it the wrong way. I now belive that I should not work towards the approval of others but towards self approval........I know that sounds like really obvious but think about it and maybe you may realise something.
My education seems as though it is at a stand still at the moment(which it actually is), maybe its because I really do not know what I want out of this Education(belive it or not this is very true).So am going to stick to my 2010 plan and take what i have and work with it.
I have for the first time realised how rediculous i have been waiting for my big break, Nothing great comes out of sitting on your arse and waiting for manner from heaven and blaming the choices made either voluntary or by force.
The system in which we exist may seem flawed but that is just because we only conclude this when 'things' arent going our way.
I belive that there is a perfect balance and that sometimes we just happen to be on the other side of the scale.
But how to get the strength to deal with all the consequences of my choices, or where to get a solution or the 'break' is still a puzzle that I hope to get more insight to as the days go by (hopefully without wasting time).
Stick to the positive

see you next update
:-)

Common Mwananchi

I can start by the usual complains of the workings of our transport system but the that is already done and quite frankly thats old and boring.
Therefore i choose to look at the positive....yes there is a positive (belive it or not)
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this update is on a constant interuption
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ok now am back
It took me one and a half hours to get from the city centre to my home which on a normal day using public transport takes me half hour maybe twenty min, and if i drive ,.well thats ten. Despite the loss of time (which many may equate to loss of money) i actually enjoyed it. Observing the frustration on peoples faces, maybe from their work places, maybe from interactions with others or some are just grumpy( i have come to realise that that is a very common trend).
Many might complain about the unruliness of matatu drivers but as for the rest of us public transport users its godsend.
I tell you that those guys(mat drivers) are very innovative, i belive that they have discovered a mode of driving that is way supirior to the common mans driving and that this is what causes motorists frustration. Jelousy...there i said it......all you motorists outhere wish you could speed through traffic like that, but since you precious cars are more important than the eaxtra time that you would have however spent on important matters such as family or friends.lets not even start on the fuel consumption and all the other shenanigans that come along with that.(blog about it another day)
Can you immagine the horror that will be unleashed if they are forced to follow the rules....there shall be a total breakdown of the system...mark my words........
because anyway we have no roads....(lets just leave it at that)
Anyway lets get to the point....what have i learnt today from my seemingly endless jouney.....................................PATIENCE
A virtue that for so long has evaded me but I think that i had a little taste of it today. how does it taste like??? well i cant really tell.....it like when you taste food and you cant really identify any of the spices( or something similar to that) or really what it is. So lets keep tasting it and i shall finally(one day) confidently tell you what it is( Patience that is and if it sits well with my stomach)
Oh well this positivity notion is not as hard as I thought it would be.
thats it for now....lets meet next update
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SEMA KENYA

Finally since feb of 08'(post election) the certificate has finally arrived.
I feel like it has been some endless battle,like that bad dream that is sooo long and refuses to be interrupted.
funny how this ''Kenyan" way of doing things works...I had infact forgot that i (or rather we)had even applied to have the organization registered. Then from no where it fell...I'll assume that its manner from heaven. no one should tell me otherwise.
what does this mean to the rest of you all out there....well much especially if you are a youth.
Yes that difference that everyone is promising you out there( and none delivered) I want to tackle.
This is the voice we have all been waiting for, the revelution I have been talking of.
I am filled with nothing but excitement for this my new journey; wanna walk with me????
watch this space

inspired

Well...isnt that what we all look for eevrytime things arent going as well as we expect...or really arent happening( mostly its just not happening). But today I did get it, atleast i hope i am not mistaking it for insight(very thin line if you think about it). I read something that was absolutely genius and thank God that there are so many of us out there who dare to share what so many of us (yet still) go through. That we are many and i feel like there shall be a revolution(i dare say) starting from our couches(and all that relates).
Thanks to my seamstress friend(15+yrs in the making).....todays blog is for you
:-)
It does feel good to have all the energy when you are starting off on new things or approaches (to old things)...to keep busy and mind preoccupied.
I use thing because of a lack of a better word and will use it alot in future(or maybe not) but untill otherwise lets just stick to that.
my deadline is almost up and i sure hope to get all I need tomorrow.....i need alot for my chapter which thanks to my lazy nature(which am working in btw) hasnt started
fingers crossed
till next time
have a good one